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Tuesday, May 30, 2006

I am tore again!

Should I work for a big US MNC company handling clinical research project team (I refer em as gorillas) toking to big shot such as docs and professors , ordinating projects (also MSN in a nice PC in a big cold office wif a big cubicle?) but pay really peanuts (lets see, ya have yr CPF cut 20% plus transport plus far distance plus meals) OR work for monkeys (are fun to tok with, no intell'' included )with free bananas (free transport to and fro, NO CFP CUT, cheap meals, high OT pay 2 times, no commitments ,overall high pay?)

I saw this funny job ad in newspaper for banglows property agents : " Will you wan to work with company full of monkeys and make you pay peanuts or will you want to join a company full of gorillas , your bananas is FREE!?"

Irony, but that's really opp from wat I am experiencing isn't it ?

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Saturday, May 27, 2006

I am tore between satisfying own destiny in my path way with preassuming big responsiblities toward others.

What will you choose?

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Thursday, May 25, 2006

2day went for sth temp job interview. meet pauline . she passed me the hillsong cd as birthday present. I am so surprised!

Pauline is like a god send to me , I wonder wat should I buy for her birthday present ?

I am listening now . inspired and keen to know more of Him ! Again it renew my faith with Him .

Just heard a friend have succeed in doing something that she always wanted to do. A kind of dream to her . I am so glad for her and also it is kind of inspiring me that I should not give up in doing sththing that I want to do .
I know success belong to people who dun stop dreaming and dun stop improving themselves to achieve the dream.
For me, I have a lot of dreams, a lot of things to do and now I am going to fulfil them one by one !

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Wednesday, May 24, 2006

I am eating my Moonlight PreciousBox(yue guang bao he) aka Hor Fun with added egg.
I guess that is one of my fav moments here..

When people tok abt big apple (USA) , I dun really get excited wif them. Been there done that. What's the news?

To me, my excitement of a country equals to that of the exchange rate. I am definitely excited abt UK, always.
Even since US dollar plummeting , so as my excitement. I am more interested in stirred egg with hor fun .

Wat's so excited abt spending $$ in other country ?
Wat's so excited abt seeing a cool (yes, u assumed) country?

Been to other country, the coolest thing is that u are loaded with Vit M.
It is not funny it is true.
Coz at the end of the day, it is the Vit M, always. IT IS AN UNIVERSAL LANGUAGE PROVEN BY MY INTERNATIONAL COLLEAGUES.
Take transport(there, transport expensive u know) to a place of interest , nd $$
Buy things , nd $$
eat, nd $$
live , nd $$
It is that simple.
When u have no $$ , no transport to place of interest, no sightseeing ,u will be unhappy .
When no $$ buy things u like , no happy
no eat , no happy
no place to stay , no happy
budget travel= unhappy travel

This time, I go , I will go as long as possible.

today My friend n I tok abt $$
today My family n I tok abt $$
when overseas, we tok abt $$
while sleeping , have nightmare abt $$

$$ can content materially, but soul and spirit can't.
no Money can't content materially , soul and spirit also can't .
wat's the best deal?

I pray ,
Lord , let me don't worry about the Vit A,B, C or M
PLs prove to me that Him are the biggest to me
Neither the gold, nor the name.
I 'm sin , for once, I follow the gold, than Him
The others, will rather let the paper sinned em'
For Him, He know, the gold is a stone.
Once molded, It 's a double edged sword.
My dear Father, for whereever I go
Let me see though the gold , let not the gold worries me.
Fulfilled me with soul and spirit always
Amen.

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Tuesday, May 23, 2006

haiz .

I shall see everything in positive light.

Everything happens for a reason.

Let this reason to be loved to be respected

God Send this msg to me .

For I believes, it is the best for me

God , knows my deepest desires

That hides my deepest happiness

For I don't know , I can only see the surfaces of imaginary happiness

This imaginary happiness can be a hidden grim of evil

So God, I believes in you

When I am in a confusion soul. I think of one Japanese drama.

That is " Long Vacation " by Takuya Kimura (oh yea) and Tomoko Yamaguchi
It is abt beautiful romance between Sena(kimura) and Minami(tomoko). Although they are far apart in age and interests. Minami and Sena confide in and console each other about their relationship problems and their lack of success in life - Sena says that if everything just doesn't seem to be going your way, one can treat it as a "long vacation" given by the gods, a time where one should relax and not take things too seriously.

When the vacation ends, so as your problem, disappointment and moves on.

I am having a long vacation , I don't know when this vacation will ends. But, if it ends, I know that it will be a new beginning.

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When Takuya plays the music on the piano called "Missing you " . I fall in love with this piece over and over again . Since Secondary school till now.
I am listening to it now.

Suddenly, Everything is cleared in mind. Just few hours ago, i thought it is the end of the world.
6 months ago I was with a friend. I realised that this journey is better off an one man journey.
Maybe , a journey alone is the best way to learn to be independent.

Whatever it takes, I am doing it in single sword. It 's gonna be less complicated. Once there, it's gonna be many sword with u. I may not know,the double sword may end up turn around and aim at u

in today's daily bread website , it is about "critism"
A fool despises his father instruction, but he who receives correction is prudent. â€”Proverbs 15:5

Someone , will like to critisize me pls?

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Monday, May 22, 2006

Moral deflation in process
Passion stink and rot
Call it inferiority complex
Thanks

Have this feeling of just rot in an extremely cold office dealing with freaky paper works and then do this the rest of my life. That's wat we called an ultimate stable and comfortable job from all those accumulation of enlightenment from all those educational years ; as told by our parents " study hard , be an officer working in office 9-5, stable and comfortable and be rich"
I am in a office at this suntec 2day , I am like thinking .. "like classroom" those japanese type of office arrangement . I can't believe it.

Life shouldn't be like this for aries.

Pls no constipation and body ache
Nor PMS
My life biggest fears for now !

Ok , Let's ready to rise and shine for tomorrow.

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Monday, May 15, 2006

This is wat I learnt from the drama "My lovely Sam Soon "

"춤추라, 아무도 바라보고 있지 않은 것처럼.
Dance like no one is watching

사랑하라, 한번도 상처받지 않은 것처럼.
Love like you've never been hurt

노래하라, 아무도 듣고 있지 않은것처럼.
Sing like no one is listening

일하라, 돈이빌요하지 않은 것처럼.
Work like you don't need the money

살라, 오늘이 마지막 날인 것처럼.
Live life every day as if it were your last"

To people who have undergone disappointment again and again. Some may have lost their confidence and positivity but I really hope that people in failure don't stop trying and still live their best because everyone deserve a good treatment by themselves after they have tried hard at doing something.

It maybe difficult at first but keep the positive notes going on the mind, one day , positive will brainwash all those neg thoughts in the mind.

Sometimes.. keeping to simple plan will be the best , the rest , let it be , if they comes , they will and u keep it . If not , it 's the fate . Blame on the fate can be a good nice way to make us feel better for something that is not our control. hahaah

But , we can control our thoughts wif those pretti sweet positive thoughts!

Pray to God. One being in this universe is as powerful as Him. He is the powerplant of human.

I saw somewhere in an article is that , the utimate importance of life is to find our sense of inate peace. Peace In Mind that is.
The importance or goal in life is nor materialistic goods and fame. As we know that this is illusion when we have got it .
huh huh , it is from Jet Li words

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Monday, May 08, 2006

"The woman caught sight of her reflection in the mirror and stood transfixed, as if seeing herself for the first time: she marvelled at the blue lace network of veins across her chest. She noticed the stretch marks across her belly and began to smooth them with her fingers, remembering the magic of the twins' birth and the delight they bought her daily. She began to smile. As she did, she saw how deeply etched the lines around her eyes and her mouth had become. SHe was a woman who had laughed too loud, too often. She was indeed blessed."

This paragraph was derived from the book called " Authentic Woman " by Leslie & susanath which is now I am reading . A inspiring good book of being feeling gd your original self , the pride of being a real woman and also tips to take care of yourself . A book about aging gracefully.
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This is what I do in a sweet sunny afternoon.

I bought a little package of delicious Marcel Proust's magical madeleine at my delifrance outlet nearby my house out.
Have a nice afternoon tea all by myself, with the French cake dipped with tea and yummy.
The tasty cookie comes with a story.

It tells of a girl named Madeleine who created these shell shaped cookies for the Duke of Lorraine, who loved them and subsequently shared them with his daughter, Marie, the wife of King Louis the XV! They have been enjoyed in France ever since then.

It was to say that Madeleine must always dunk with tea like oreo cookie with milk for it taste perfecto!

Madeleine was often associated with Marcel Proust in his novel “Remembrance of Things Past.”

In a renowned passage of the autobiographical novel Marcel Proust “Remembrance of Things Past”, the fleeting taste of this cake/cookie calls to life the world of the narrator's childhood in Belle Epoque France:

“She (Marcel's mother) sent for one of those squat plump little cakes called "petites madeleines," which look as though they had been molded in the fluted valve of a scallop shell … I raised to my lips a spoonful of the tea in which I had soaked a morsel of the cake. No sooner had the warm liquid mixed with the crumbs touched my palate than a shudder ran through me and I stopped intent upon the extraordinary thing that was happening to me. An exquisite pleasure invaded my senses …
And suddenly the memory revealed itself. The taste was that of the little piece of madeleine which on Sunday mornings at Combray … when I went to say good morning to her in her bedroom, my aunt Leonie used to give me, dipping it first in her own cup of tea or tisane …. and the whole of Combray and its surroundings, taking shape and solidity, sprang into being, town and garden alike, from my cup of tea.”

Nice ref from website www.slate.com

I took a bite. An "exquisite pleasure" had invade my senses. Swoosh it around in your mouth and savor the melted morsel of the cake to crumbs. Enlighten my senses and nostalgic.
Here, in my childhood , who heck care about sinful stuff hides behind the mouth-watering buttered pastry ?
Go on , and have you will have your own madeleine memories.

Just finished watching the drama “ My name called Sam soon “ and I really like this quote about the theory of men from ep 6. Sad but quite true…
01-Nice men are ugly
02-Handsome men are not nice
03-Handsome and nice men are married
04-Handsome, nice and unmarried men are useless
05-Handsome, nice, unmarried and rich men are not interested in us
06-Handsome, nice, unmarried, rich men who are interested in us are players
07-Handsome, nice, unmarried, rich men who are interested in us and faithful are homosexuals
08-Handsome, nice, unmarried, rich men who are interested in us, faithful, straight and who would not lose interest in us even if we made the first moves - these men must have some problems!

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Monday, May 01, 2006

An 80's song played in the radio of a bus I am in.

A bus of cold silence as I am wondering , people are enjoying the song carefully.

Simple struming of the guitar, clear voice and direct expression of the lyric.

Repeating .. repeating

Retro songs always stir my emotion string

ahh .. where is the boy that keeps goin though my mind -in my sec school days?

That innocence young ones playing each another game of hide and seek.

But .. can never be found yet ain't giving up of this search.

Have they found their blossoms?

Where 's he now? Where's he now ?

Does he wonder where I am ?

Does he feeling fine?

This is what I thought. Resting my head against my right fist, staring the blank space.

An images of the pasts quickly and quietly passes around like the image of the scenery outside, viewing from the bus inside.

How can a liking can be so simple and lasting ?

Love and liking shouldn't be so complicated.

Just like these paragraph; simple language and easy to understand.

Where Are You Now
Jimmy Harnen lyrics

All alone tonight
I'm calling out your name
Somewhere deep inside
This part of you remains

Images of love
Take me back in time
I don't know how it started
Why it ever had to end
But something stepped inside
We didn't let it in
Is keeping us apart

Where are you now
Where are you now
Is someone there tonight
Holding what was mine

Where are you now
Do you wonder where I am
Are you really feelin' fine
Goin' through my life
Without you by my side
You're the only thing
That keeps goin' through my mind
And nothin' that I do
Can take the place of you

Where are you now
Is someone there tonight
Holding what was mine

Where are you now
Do you wonder where I am
Are you really feelin' fine

Oooh, thinkin about you, girl
There's gotta be a place for me
Somewhere in your heart

---- Instrumental Interlude ----
ll alone tonight
I'm calling out your name
Somewhere deep inside
This part of you remains
Images of love
Where are you now
Where are you now
Is someone there tonight
Holding what was mine
Where are you now
Do you wonder where I am
Are you really feelin' fine
Where are you now
Is someone there tonight
Holding what was mine
Where are you now
Do you wonder where I am
I need you here tonight....

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went to suntec 2day for a workout . I saw sad Singaporeans story . The Q that leads to redeem of 22000 tin of milo. Unbelieveable. They could Q for hours to redeem the milo and yes, under the hot sun too.In suntec ,every few ppl u pass by , have a tin of milo in their hand. A couple of ah moh on the top look down and laugh .

In planet fitness, I cut Que to refill my water bottle in a water cooler after my friend finished refilling .a muscular species behind, moved forward towards me and seriously lectured me "Oei ! next time dun cut que okay !" He , a chinese assumed male species shot me in a threatening voice.

That moment, I was beri angry and surprised . The thought of placing both my hands on my hips cum lecturing him back pass though my mind(ok I am a temperment gal who can't keep my mouth shut, anyway, u see ,Aren those people bound for an insult? There are people out there who is so skin-ich that they hope people can insult them so that they feel challenged to live their boring life in a boring fitness centre) ...but wait..
He/She is so cute , I mean ..He/she is not cute physically (anyway, who he think he is ?Nether he have smothering good look or filthy rich. Just the poke marks under his unevenly tanned skin can me wanting to steal some of my papa funiture sandpaper and scrub on it until it is polished and shine ! Or the smooth file from the Nan Hua secondary technical workshop and then grab his face and polishes under the moving buffering machine like a professional. Oh ya , I used to remember it polished the side of my DIY plastic photo frame till it is unbelievable shining!

Imagine it , I can't scold him/her no gentleman , becoz he/she may have muscle from those training but he/she is still not a man ...mentally. He/she may say that he/she is an ah kua and of course he/she will defend himself/herself and say that why should he /she be gentleman when he/she is not a man. OR he/she may say he/she is "Gentle" - "man" but not a gentleman.U get wat I mean?
I can 't scold him/her an ah kua becoz he/she dun let gals lst , becoz that is politically incorrect and he/she may angry and say he/she is not an ah kua, he/she may try to sue me from maligning. U see if I scold him/her political incorrectly, I feel unfeminine and may downgrade myself.

you see , I am at a dilemma of what to do but I am pretty amused-to-turn- angry that I did not scold him ( u see if I dun scold him/her to his wake , he/she may not find girlfriend for the rest of his/her life. I am really feeling sorry for G*Y coz they can be prefectly normal but they choose not to. Able to fall in love with a lady is one of the most beautiful thing in life for guys.)

He/she, is so failed in life , turning a an fugly wimp that he/she can only left lecture a gal in a public place.

Shi zi fa da, tou now jian tan. keke these people just simply like to spoilt people mood!! tsk tsk

oh ya , rem not to offend a lady with PMS

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